Beautiful to Him

Since I moved out of my house I have found myself worrying about the way I look more. Worrying about gaining weight, wondering if I'm pretty enough to be attractive to guys, dealing with silly trivial things like my clothes, the color of my hair, and if I should wear make up or not. But then I listened to this song that I absolutely love by Jenny Phillips:

So much noise
so much peace destroyed
i can hardly hear the voice
leading me through the void
just so much noise

the world's little lies
destruction in disguise
opportunities to compromise
to make me beautiful in their eyes
but i'm not going to buy
the world's little lies

cause i define myself and find my beauty in
the light he gives
i'm refined by his divine intentions every day i live
it doesn't matter what the world believes
or what they say that beauty means
it comes from within...
i wanna be beautiful to him.

he's given me his trust
so i'll be strong enough
to run from a dangerous touch
i don't need THAT kind of "love"
i don't need that crutch
he's given me his trust.

cause i define myself and find my beauty in 
the light he gives
i'm refined by his divine intentions every day i live
it doesn't matter what the world believes
or what they say that beauty means
it comes from within.....
i wanna be beautiful to him.

I know how to shine
my life's not really mine
it's not about a worldly climb
it's all about HIS design
so in his eyes...
i wanna shine.

cause i define myself and find my beauty in 
the light he gives
i'm refined by his divine intentions every day i live
it doesn't matter what the world believes
or what they say that beauty means
it comes from within...
i wanna be beautiful to him.

i want to live to have his peace
and feel the holiness he sees
it comes from within.....
i wanna be beautiful
to Him. 


This song helped me remember the precious truth that I had let get clouded up; that it doesn't matter if I look like a Barbie doll or Raggedy Ann doll. I am still a Daughter of My Heavenly Father and I am beautiful to Him. He loves me and thinks I'm beautiful whether I'm skinny as a twig, have perfect flowing hair, a smooth complexion, and I'm wearing the  trendiest clothes on the market, or if I'm kinda flabby, my hair's up in a ponytail, I've got a couple zits and I'm wearing a baggy t-shirt and a pair of jeans. I should be focusing more on my inner beauty. Conditioning my faith, keeping my knowledge of the gospel up to date, and making sure my spirit is beautiful. 


Also, that I shouldn't bother with whether boys think I'm hot or not. If a guy is really worth my while he will like me for my personality, testimony and what I have to offer. That will make me beautiful to him. NOT having a pound of make up on my face.


I'm not saying that this means that I don't think I have to take care of myself. I just shouldn't make my appearance be the center of my attention.




Focus your life around the Savior and be Beautiful to Him.

You have been HACKED!

This is Miyuki, M'kaaylie's dear roommate. I love M'kaaylie so much, she is the nicest, funniest, most amazing girl ever. We are stuck together like glue. I love you girrrrrl!

An Intense Week

Holy Canolli! First week back to school; what a pain. I've spent most of my time trying to rearrange my schedule and audition for classes and get off waitlists and make sure I have enough credits and figure out my financial aid. I'm about ready to pull my hair out! Luckily I got my financial aid, but it's not quite enough to cover all my classes so I'm going to have to pay some of it myself. I auditioned for bass clarinet in the symphonic band and made it in. I auditioned for bronze ballroom team and made it in. Now I just need a new mouth piece and dance shoes. I'm off all the waitlists but one, which I really need so I'll have enough credits to drop Biology which I really don't want to take this semester.
Thursday was my last day at Target and they paid me for the rest of my time there in cash, on the spot. It was nice :) I'm not going to really miss the job at all, but I really liked the people I worked with. Especially my friend Paul. He was really good to work with and way fun to talk to and goof around with. Too bad he's 30 and has a girlfriend. lol I'm way excited because now I get to start working more and working towards becoming night manager at Subway! Breanna finally fixed Subway University so now I just need to take the classes. Sweet!
I've been working on being more healthy this year. I've been eating less fast food, less junk food, less soda, smaller servings, and lots more fruits and veggies. I also walk a lot more this semester because my classes are all on opposite sides of the building. I'm taking the stairs more, and I've got 3 hours of dance on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. So hopefully I'll be able to get in better shape with all that.
I've been spending a lot of time with the guy I like. We've either hung out, danced, facebooked or texted every day since Dec. 27th. Now I know what you're thinking and no, he doesn't like me. We're just friends. But I'm totally fine with that because we're  becoming really good friends and that's exactly what I want. I just want him to know that he can always come to me and that I'm always here for him. I think he's finally starting to understand that.
We're not even half way into the first month of the year and it's already chaotic. It'll be fun to see what the rest of the year brings. Until next time, I bid thee ado.

Being a helper

A lot of people ask what is the meaning of life? What is my purpose on Earth? I believe that one of the reasons I was put on this Earth was to help others. Even if I have had the most crappiest day ever, if I have helped improve someone else's day, I consider it a good successful day. Nothing brings me more joy than to see others happy.
Today was a really tough day. I was way stressed out and had a lot on my plate. I couldn't focus because I had hardly gotten any sleep the night before because of the stress. I was frazzled, tired, anxious, snappy and just in kind of a downer mood. But I had several friends come to me tonight with different problems in different situations. I talked to them and was able to help each one of them find a solution to their problems through love, understanding, and good advice. Although the rest of my day had been really rough, because I helped my friends I would consider this one of the best days I've had in a while :)

Twitterpation

He is so amazing. The more I talk to him, the more I find out we have in common. the more I find out about him, the more I fall in love with him. I wish he would just realize how perfect we are for each other. Sure I'm not as gorgeous as most of the other girls he hangs out with and is into, but I have so much in common with him. We get along so well and are into the same things. What a doll! I've told him I like him, but he's into... her...Yeah, she's awesome,  but she just doesn't seem right for him.Yeah, I'm biased, but I don't care. ;) He's everything I want in a guy. He makes me so happy and I can't think straight when I'm around him. I would do anything for him. I would do whatever it takes to make him happy. We can talk for hours and we can talk about anything. I wish he would see me as more than just a friend. Oh well, he doesn't turn 19 til June, I've got time. wish me luck!

New year, new experience

Wow. Funny to think I've never blogged before. I'm not really sure what my blog is going to be about or turn out to be, so it'll probably just end up being random and all over the place, like me. :)

It's the first day of the year and my new years resolution is to be proactive. I've always just done what I had to, when I had to do it, and only the the point where I could get by. I only deal with things when they become a big problem. Basically, I'm the biggest procrastinator ever and let "whatever" determine my life for me. But after a semester on my own trying to do that, I am done. I want to take care of things before they become a problem. I want to go out of my way to make a better life for myself. No longer will I be the log in the river, flowing wherever it gets pushed and turning where the rocks and current tell it to. It's time to start making things happen for me. It's time to start staying ahead of the game. It's time to take chances. It's time to try new things. It's time to live.